This Little Light Of Mine

All my life, I’ve stared at my reflection and seen nothing but a broken image.

I felt as though I was a puzzle piece placed in the wrong box, never truly fitting the image I thought others wanted to see.

My hands were made for service, this I know. A calling that runs deep within. But listening to others allowed fear to creep in.

Saying I do it for the spotlight, I’m too loud, too much, too emotional, too giving, not good enough. That I should leave it to the professionals. 

I fought for years trying to prove my worth to others. Standing in a spotlight that was really an illusion.

I woke every day thinking and worrying because others are watching and judging me. My past, my present, and my future. All are being judged. 

My health started declining. My desire to share encouraging words with others was gone. I felt so lost. My children pulled away from me. Friend groups shrank, and everything I tried to achieve fell short. 

BUT GOD

At the start of the new year, I said something has got to give. I cried out, “God, please help me.”

This has been a beautiful journey so far. I am not focused on pleasing others, but am now focused on my daily relationship with Him.

Each day, my heart gets stronger, my confidence grows, and I am trying to truly listen for guidance from God for each move. 

My prayer each day is that he will continue to walk beside me and guide my steps.

The words that continue to come to me almost daily are these words;

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine, shine within me.

Hope is being built on a firm foundation. And, He’s got the whole world in his hands. 

God has forgiven me for my past. My past does not define who I am. I am finding who I am with HIM!

With God by my side, I will continue to fight for myself and, in turn, fight for my family! Letting God’s light shine bright!

Happy New Year to you all! I truly hope the first month of 2026 has been amazing.